Reflecting on 2020 & Setting resolutions for 2021
I’m quite a sentimental person – I love reflecting on how far I’ve come. I spend so much time reading back my personal diaries. I love thinking back on my highs and my lows, reflecting on each thing, and seeing how it's helped me to better myself as a person grow. I always want to grow and evolve; I always want to be the best version of myself which is why I’m constantly setting myself goals and resolutions to strive towards. I have a tendency for beating myself up during a situation (as I think I'm not doing good enough) but then I will look back on it six months later and marvel at how strong I was or how determined I was (even if I couldn’t see it at the time).
Obviously, I am the exact kind of person that lives for new years resolutions. I wouldn’t go as far as saying “new year, new me” but, I would definitely say that I live by “new year, better me” and I think that’s completely okay.
For me, 2020 was a year of growth and achievements. I spent a lot of time alone in the first lockdown and I wholeheartedly loved it, I would sit in my garden for hours reading and writing whilst soaking up the sun. I read all of the Harry Potter’s for the first time, tears were shed but, I also laughed and smiled a lot. It was the perfect escapism for me. I felt hurt and betrayed a lot during 2020, I doubted myself a lot and questioned myself even more - I was stuck in a situation that hurt my heart. Thankfully, over the past few months, my confidence has increased and my anxiety has wavered as I’ve finally begun to listen to my inner voice and opinion of myself. I’ve learned that if you ask for validation from the people that dislike you, you will only be put down. You don’t have to explain yourself to these people, you just have to wake up every day and strive to be a good person, that is enough (I promise). Just before 2020, I began my fitness journey, and over the course of 2020, I lost weight, fell in love with working out again, and created a healthier relationship with food (something that I’d been struggling with for years). Now, my mindset and my body both feel so much healthier and stronger and I am so grateful for that.
I don’t know what 2021 is going to bring and I don’t want to plan too much because as we’ve all seen from last year, anything can happen. However, I would like to write more this year, read more books than I did last year and learn more. I want to make the most of any experiences that arise and throw myself into them as much as possible. I really really want to be able to set off on a two-year traveling adventure at some point this year (if covid kindly fucks off). I just want to live my life and be fully immersed in my happiness and the happiness of those that I care about.
I have two resolutions this year. The first being to be even more active this year than last year. I want to walk more and get my average steps up daily. I want to go on bike rides, hire out tennis courts and go swimming. I want to work out harder and focus on losing fat and building muscle (this is such a journey but, I think I’m getting there). I want to be able to lift heavier and feel stronger in everyday tasks like carrying shopping home, picking objects up, moving furniture around, etc… Being more active and more healthy means making food choices that are going to make me feel good. As well as this, I want to indulge in foods that are good for my soul: Cakes (the fluffy ones in Chinese supermarkets, I will eat them all), cookies, sweets, chocolate, pasta, pastries, cheese and crackers, homemade oily pesto (I will take the lot).
My second resolution is to save money and make more money. I’m tired of living paycheck to paycheck, which means that I need to be more conscious of my money and not spend it before I even get it. It means putting money by every week, making lunches for work, and not ordering things online on a weekly basis. As well as this I want to start some side hustles and find some ways of making extra money. I think it’s so important in this day and age to have more than one stream of income and I’m so ready to hop on the opportunities that are all around us and make some money. I’ve come to the realization that I want to buy a house on Baker Street one day, so I really need to start grafting (and consider selling my soul).
Here’s to a good year and if it can’t be good, here’s to a year.